Revisiting
the day I almost died on 3rd September 2009 a full moon Thursday, I was
wondering now, if my body had ceased to exist in this world that night my
parents would have never known how I truly felt about them and what would I
have wanted to communicate to them - the core of the matter. So I thought it is
never too late to do it now and so here it goes the thoughts that were running
in my mind during those uncertain 72 Hrs in the ICU…
"Dear
Mom and Dad,
I strongly
believe that God created me before I was even conceived in your lovely warm
womb and then He chose you as an instrument to bring me into this beautiful
world, I could not thank Him enough for choosing you as a couple to foster,
nourish, take care and bring me up. Thank you God for everything!
From the
time you have conceived me Mommy dear till date you have been the best Mom one
can have and I've always felt cared for, loved and a whole lot of other good
emotions but most of all I've always felt special knowing God chose such a
magnificent lady to be My-Mother when in real you could have ruled the world
with your talent and charm and beauty… but when he has chosen you to take care
of me full time I felt and knew the love God had for me. You are the best! You
rock! There is not another like you and I am glad that you have been mine for
the years I've been alive. I am sorry for all those times that I've broken your
heart or hurt your feelings, know that none of those were intentional. I've
always loved you from the bottom of my heart, shared my life with you literally
and you were my only best friend in this world out there. I love you Mom and I
hope I have lived upto your expectations if not all atleast in most of the
cases. Mom you should know I'm not perfect and you never expected me to be,
thank you for that but in everything I did I tried and did my best, I gave my
100% to life though life has been challenging for me in every possible way from
the very first breathe I've taken in this world. Thank you for being there for
me always! I've loved you the most in my life and I will always miss you.
Please do not miss me for I will always live in your hearts for ever!
All my
childhood best memories have you in them Dad for you were the one who took me
out and taught me to play for the first time. Though later on in life we had
our differences, still the bond remained, the biological connection always
stayed stronger. You taught me many things in life from how to read, to study,
to laying a foundation for my successfully schooling, being there for me for
all the exams I've given even for my MBA exams till this far in life… thank you
for it all. Thank you for being there as one on whom I could depend on at any
time of my life. I apologize to you too for the times I might have hurt your
feelings, again none were intentional but were emotional and true. I wish I
could have stuck around for a while longer and supported you in every possible
way but when the Creator calls no one has a say in it. I hope you understand
and take good care of self and mommy for me. Please know that I did my best to
be your daughter and bring you pride and I hope I have fulfilled it to a certain
extent and not disappointed you both in any way. I will miss you.
I thank you
both for allowing me to be a part of your lives together. We have had ups and
downs in our lives but always it was a fun ride in a well knit family - a
beautiful trio. I loved the fact that I got all the attention of you both and
got completely spoilt and was the darling of the house at all times. You did
the best job in bringing me up physically, emotionally & spiritually!
Love you the
most…………
With tight
warmest hugs, lasting kisses and cherished memories...
Your's
forever daughter, child & baby……. Di"
